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2-26-2019 at 4:08pm EST

A good day in the park!

#mindsetreset #reinventingyourlife #aspergersexperts

11-27-2018 at 4:55pm EST
How to Respond to Falling Short? Depression, Reasonable, or Fuck It! Shopping Fix. Struggling with stress and "I'm not good enough."

2-18-2019 at 7:07am EST

Struggling with a personality and/or perspectival shift. Borderline Personality Disorder and Dissociative Identity Disorder. Impulses to Cut Myself, Self Mutilation. Impulses to Give Up and Return to Masochistic Sex Addiction. Confusion in My Perspective. Borderline Splitting.

2-24-2019 at 12:56pm EST

What's it like to deliberately choose to make time to stim, as a disabled autistic. A description of my experience with a deliberate stimming session to cope with my autistic meltdown symptoms.

9-28-2018 at 6:13pm EST

2-16-2019 at 6:07am EST

A bit of a rant regarding my perception that there are a lot of shaming tactics going on, particularly from those who have found "recovery" from drug addiction to those who are still desperately caught up in their addictions. Also from other persons, of course. I strongly believe that experiencing connection and receiving generous love are the keys to climbing out of the addiction pit.

I firmly believe that shaming, fear-mongering, criticism and condemnation serve only to further bury struggling addicts into the ground. Being clean doesn't make anyone a "better" addict than those who use. We are all human beings who deserve compassion and empathy.

Feel free to take this personally or otherwise get mad at me. Maybe you're the one who needs to hear this most. Yes, I stand up for the "underdog," even if you think that makes me an asshole.

Acceptance is what these people need as they so desperately grapple to come to a self-acceptance of their own. Recovery literature also emphasizes the importance of self-acceptance. A person's self-acceptance is not built by telling that person what a piece of shit they are, even if by lesser words.

That's my take, as someone who devoted 11 years of hard-working participation to a 12-step fellowship and chose to leave the program in my own desperation with 7.5 years clean.

I have seen this supposed “tough love” pushed onto myself and many others. I experienced firsthand that such approaches made my struggle immensely harder on many occasions. I’ve seen many others breaking under it, as well. So yes, I have something to say about that.

Note: I DO BELIEVE THAT 12 STEP PROGRAMS HAVE GREAT VALUE TO MANY ADDICTS, as they did to me. I am in no way saying that every aspect of these programs is harmful -not by any stretch of the imagination. I am simply acknowledging that these programs are not perfect, and that this is one major way in which I feel that the fellowship (at least in my own locality) is failing many addicts who simply have been unable to find their help in these programs.

3-2-2019 at 6:45pm EST

An emotionally intense video showing a brief section of an ongoing autistic-adult meltdown. This is what one could call the "frozen on the couch" phase of my meltdowns. My functioning here is severely reduced as my meltdown has been building in waves for about 2-3 days. After this video I retreated to my bedroom to stim in quiet darkness. This video helped me process in order to gather up the ability to do so.